💔 From Panic to Collapse — Trying to Survive
🚨 URGENT UPDATE — PLEASE READ AND SHARE 🚨
Jean’s condition is rapidly getting worse. He is now experiencing daily seizures, severe panic attacks, and frequent loss of consciousness making him passing out at any time.
At this moment, there is no money left for medication, treatment, or even basic living needs. Despite sharing this campaign everywhere and reaching out to many people, no help has arrived yet.
Jean has been unemployed because he can collapse or pass out at any moment, making it impossible to work. His mother is also ill, and the family is struggling to pay rent, bills, food, and medical needs.
We are living day by day with almost nothing, hoping someone will see this and care.
Jean is the backbone of his family, and losing him would devastate everyone who loves him.
We are begging anyone with a compassionate heart:
please help us save Jean.
Even the smallest donation or share could make the difference between hope and tragedy.
🙏 Please read his story below and help if you can.
💔 URGENT FUNDRAISING APPEAL — PLEASE HELP SAVE JEAN 💔
"وأمّا من كان له معيشة العالم، ونظر أخاه محتاجاً، وأغلق أحشاءه عنه، فكيف تثبت محبّة اللّه فيه؟".
لكل حدا عم يقرأ، أنا بترجّاك تساعدني، المساعدة لو قد ما كانت قليلة رح تكون من خلالها عم تعطي حياة جديدة ليلّي محتاجها، ورح إذكرك بصلاتي تهالنعمة يلّي رح تساعدني فيها تتضاعف إلك. بتشكّركن من كل قلبي❤️
"If anyone has material possessions and sees a brother or sister in need but has no pity on them, how can the love of God be in that person?" — 1 John 3:17
To everyone reading this,
My name is Jean, I am 33 years old, and writing these words is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.
For years, I have been suffering in silence, trying to hide my pain and pretend that I was strong enough to handle everything alone. But today I can no longer carry this burden by myself.
I am asking for help with all humility and hope that someone will hear my cry.
***My Story:
Since childhood, my life has been marked by severe traumas.
Since the age of three years old, I experienced abuse that deeply scarred my life. At the age of eight years old and over the years I endured sexual assault, harassment, and physical violence, experiences that left wounds in my mind and soul that never truly healed.
For many years I tried to survive quietly, but fighting quietly with no support whatsoever caused me to attempt suicide more than 20 times over the years, believing that if I stayed silent and kept going, things would eventually get better.
Instead, my condition slowly became worse.
***My Illness:
Today I live with severe mental health conditions that have taken control of my life.
I have been diagnosed with:
• Severe PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder)
• Severe Panic Disorder
• Major Depressive Disorder (MDD)
• Severe Suicidal Thoughts and Behaviors
• All of this deteriorating me, even my physical health, as a month ago I had a heart attack.
These illnesses are not just diagnoses on paper.
They mean that:
• I experience terrifying flashbacks and memories
• I suffer sudden panic attacks that leave me shaking and unable to breathe
• I sometimes collapse or lose consciousness
• I feel constant fear, guilt, and shame
• I suffer from insomnia, exhaustion, and digestive problems
• I struggle every day with the feeling that I may not survive another hour
Since January 2025, my panic attacks have become daily and unpredictable.
Sometimes my heart races uncontrollably, my body shakes violently, and I completely lose the ability to speak or move.
Many times, I hide in the bathroom during these episodes so my mother and brother do not see me suffering, because I didn’t want to make them worry.
But now the situation has become impossible to hide.
***What Happened:
Before everything collapsed, I worked as an insurance agent, collecting payments from clients and forwarding them to two companies:
• Solidarity Mutual Fund
• Securite Assurance
During two severe panic episodes, I was robbed while disoriented and unconscious.
December 7, 2024
While waiting for a client in Baabda, I suffered a panic attack and was robbed during the episode.
May 1, 2025
After medical tests at St. Michel Medical Center in Dbayeh, I avoided the elevator due to anxiety and took the stairs.
Halfway down, I experienced a violent panic attack and lost consciousness.
When I regained awareness and reached the street, I discovered that two envelopes containing insurance payments had disappeared.
I completely broke down in public.
I went home in tears, ashamed and terrified.
I informed both companies immediately, and I had a case open at the ISF – Antelias division, however nothing came out of this and both companies proceeded with legal actions.
***Doctors, Medications: and treatment:
Since I also have several health problems, and taking related medicines, I also started psychiatric medication as of August 4th 2025.
1-Medications:
*Euthyrox 100mg: 1 tablet daily 1 hour before breakfast
*Vitamin D 10,000: 2 times per week (1 on Monday, 1 on thursday)
*Zyloric 300mg: 1 tablet daily
*Venlax 150 mg + Venlax 75 mg: 1 tablet Daily each
*Remeron 30mg: 1 tablet daily before sleeping
*Quetiapine 300 mg: 1/2 tablet Daily before sleeping
*Alprox 0.5 mg: half tablet in the morning, half at night
*Folic Acid 5 mg: 1 tablet daily after food
All of these medications should be replaced with higher dosage.
.2-Doctors:
-Dr. Mario Chahrouri (Family Medicine): 03961650
-Dr. Anthony Kassab (Psychiatrist): 70691241
-Dr. Tony Sawma (Clinical Psychologist): 03487061
3-Treatment Plan:
-To find legal assistant to navigate what is better to be done due to the complications of my situation.
-Admission to Der El Salib for 10 days, to be monitored by a psychiatrist (Dr. Marc Mourad) since suicidal attempts and behaviors are severe, in this admission I will be protected and regularly monitored as I will take the medications with therapy sessions.
-Continue my therapy sessions with Dr. Tony Sawma (Clinical Psychologist) which will be over at least a year 1 time / week.
-Continue also with Dr. Anthony Kassab (Psychiatrist) who is working with me on medications to keep me stable and decrease the severity of my case.
-Continue with our Family Doctor Dr. Mario Chahrouri since I also have other medical issues and my recent case led me to have a heart attack last month.
***My Situation Today:
Since September 2025, our life has collapsed financially and medically.
We can no longer afford medications, doctors’ consultations and visits, therapy sessions or even basing living expenses.
Because of the stolen payments, the insurance companies demanded reimbursement, as I’m unable to work in this sector anymore. And since companies has taken legal actions, my policies have been cancelled and I am currently unable to work in insurance until the debts are repaid.
Without treatment, my mental health continues to deteriorate.
To date, I have survived more than 20 suicide attempts.
I am trying to stay alive, but I cannot fight this battle alone anymore, I’m just very tired.
Medical reports, documents, and receipts… can be shared with anyone who wants to verify my situation.
***How You Can Help:
Any amount, even the smallest contribution, could help save my life.
If you cannot donate, please share this campaign so it can reach someone who may be able to help.
1-Whish Money to my personal number: 70169933
2-MoneyGram to Jean Toni Hatoum (Reference number required for withdrawal)
3-Western Union / OMT / International Transfers to Jean Toni Hatoum (ID can be provided)
4-Bank Transfer
Account Holder: JEAN TONI HATOUM
IBAN: LB97005699840103500789790002
SWIFT: AUDBLBBX
Currency: USD Fresh
Address:
Beirut-Jounieh Coastal Highway
Bank Audi Building
Naccash – Dbayeh, Lebanon
***Final Words:
I am not writing this because I want pity.
I am writing because I want to live.
Right now, I am not stable, not safe, and not okay — but I am still trying to hold on.
If you have ever known what it feels like to be lost in darkness, please help me find a small light.
Your kindness could save a life.
From the bottom of my heart, with love, prayers and gratitude,
Jean Hatoum
